(written one day in 2002)
I
am…
I
am not sure.
I
am trying.
I
want to believe in God
I
am not sure if I do.
I
am Ray Davies circa 1972
I
am envious of you
I
am sure I could fix you
I
am trustworthy
I
am not opposed to stealing what I want
I
am ashamed sometimes
I
am lazy
I
am a dreamer
I
am a cat person
I
am against other people's opinions being forced on me
I
am for abortion rights
I
am not interested in opera, not even a little bit
I
am not the bullgod
I
am like the ocean
I am
totally not having fun on boats
I
am, I am superman, yet I cannot do anything
I
am inside out and upside down
I
am all the same
I
am a music lover and a musician appreciator
I
am not at all into Jazz
I
know a little bit about a lot of things
I
am an excuse maker
I
am all about the benjamins
I
am unmotivated
I
am inspired
I
am lost yet found
I
am not against the eradication of all teenagers
I
am not into corduroy
I
am that little smudge on your sunglasses
I
am sleeping with another man's wife
I
am fiercely loyal
I
want my space
I
want to lie down
I
am the straw that stirs the drink
I
am not too blind to see
I
am far away
I
am in debt
I
don't care
I
could live without seeing another human being for weeks on end
I
am lonely
I
am bored
I
am bothered by your presence, your uncertainty, your mistrust
I
am loved by many
I am
always sweating
I am
absorbing you like a sponge
I am
admitting I have the attention span of a five-year-old.
I
am not the one
I
am also not the man
I
have an itch I can't scratch inside my head
I
am not in love with another man's woman
I
am confusing to you
I
only let you know what I want you to know so if you reject me, it wasn't really
me
I
am a huge fan of comic books, video games and cartoons.
I not
a good writer but a great express-er of emotion
I
am sorely lacking in social skills
I
am everyone's friend
I
am not interested, really, I'm not
I
am interested in you
I
am the life of the party, sometimes.
I
am better one on one
I
am trying to find the words on the tip of my tongue
I
am into cunnilingus
I
am a cunning linguist
I am
trying to be nice
I
am under your thumb
I
am smiling, really, I swear
I am
always gonna look this way
I
am tougher than leather
I am
without a garage or a basement
I am
willing do anything for you
I am
secretly wanting something from you
I
am sensitive
I
am always wondering what if
I
am that book you haven't gotten around to reading yet
I
am the dust behind the refrigerator
I
am a rock, I am an island
I
am the finger
I
am rushing through a yellow light
I
am now changing the format
I
am now demanding a new key
I
do want to help
I
don't have the time
I
have all the time in the world
I
am scared of dying
I
am charging you for not rewinding
I
used to love her but it's all over now
I
am sure it doesn't make a difference
I
am caring
I
am not awake
I
am thinking of something else while you are talking
I
am scared
I
am listening, really, I am
I
am a sleepwalker, I am a nightstalker
I
am solving problems in my head
I
am unknown
I
am unlisted
I
am reformatted
I
am double sided
I
am looking it up
I
am sure
I
am coming
I
am a broken leg that hasn't happened yet
I
am the Stanley motherfucking Cup
I
am an electrode soldered to a motherboard
I
am ringing like a bell
I
am afraid not
I
am going to call you later
I
am going to be late for dinner
I
am forgetful
I
am sure I have had enough
I
am going to drop this off
I
am so goddamned down that it looks like up to me
I
am never going to call again
I
am hoping you will call
I
am a woman
I
am a man
I
am all things to everyone
I
made her cry
I
cried as well
I
am not ever speaking about anyone in particular
I
am talking about you
I
am thinking of you
I
am wishing I was you
I
am glad I'm not him
I
think he meant to do it
I
forgive her
I
am not interesting enough
I
am trying to make you like me, even though I really don't care
I
am playing games with my own head
I
have a bad back
I
am typing
I
am breathing
I
am smoking
I
am dying
I
am alive
I
am respectful
I
have extreme lust
I
am not going to hurt you, not on purpose
I
am the breeze off the lake
I
am soft
I
am harder than steel
I
have a dirty carpet and clean socks
I
have some unfinished business to take care of
I
am going but I'll be back
I
am in front of you in line
I
am misrepresenting what I really am
I
am not talking, I am all action
I
am like a tooth ache
I
am persistent
I
am going to get on your nerves
I
am not trusting you, not yet, possibly not ever
I
am two for the price of one
I
am one size fits all
I
am a sure thing
I
am going to get what I want
I
am done now
I am
in like
I
am green
I
am home
I
am up late
I
am alone
I
am going to sleep
I
am going to work
I
am going to stop because she said so
I
don't want to
I
have sore tongue
I
am glad I do
I
am going to call
I
am not sure
I
am misunderstood
I
am deceitful
I
do not mean to be
I
am sorry
I
am going to try again
I
am probably going to succeed
I
am going to have to live with that
I
am going to have to be there
I
am thirsty
I
am drowning
I
am so confused
I
am afraid of the future
I
am sick of the past
I
am in the present
I
am past the present yet in it again
I
am the sweat on your brow
I
am on top of you
I
am inside of you
I
am far from you again
I
do not know you
I
don't want to hurt you
I
don't want to owe you
I
am going to be tired at work
I
am going to wish I was home
I
am going to sleep with her
I
am going to be nice to her
I
am not going to marry her
I
am going to look past her
I
am going to regret it all
I
am going to the bathroom
I
am sorry I have blue balls
I
am sure she knew it
I
am here forever
I
am this close
I
am going to save some hope
I
am going to share some faith
I
am going to lose some of me
I
am beyond
I
am above
I
am now and then
I
am petting and stroking and feeling
I
am cleaning out my files
I
am listening to my own heartbeat
I
am counting the ways
I
am remembering that thing you said
I
am smiling because, just because
I
am a magic carpet ride
I
am pass interference
I
am fire and I am rain
I
am ashamed
I
am going to forgive
I
am not going to forget
I
am giving advice
I
am ignoring advice
I
am not as strong as you may think
I
am in shock
I
am dulled over by the repetitive nature of relationships and I am telling the
same stories over and over again and I am wanting new stories with a new ending
and I am never going to open my mouth again and I am going to make it work and
I am afraid I am going to settle
I
am going to try
I
am giving up
I
am missing you
I
am jealous and envious and greedy and just plain wrong
I
am deserving of your love
I
am cursing fate
I
am scratching my face
I
am the guy who stole the soul
I
am not Hootie or a Blowfish or Dave Mathews or his band or Gladys Knight
I
am a pip
I
think that I think, therefore I think that I am
I
am not the walrus
I
am sick to my stomach for the umpteenth time
I
am disillusioned by love
I
am brown now
I
am contemplating a new venture
I
am sure I'll succeed
I
am living the lie
I
am having second thoughts
I
am going to go with the flow
I
am going to rock the boat
I
am in-between right now
I
am waiting for inspiration to come
I
am reactive
I
am radioactive
I
am not feeling active
I
am wishing I was you
I
am cut and I am bleeding
I
am stretching my legs
I
am a twenty percent tip
I
am feeling sorry for that old woman because she is smiling
I
am thinking she is afraid and that's why she is smiling
I
am pissed at my phone bill and fuming over a parking ticket
I
am letting the days go by
I
am going to nap before work
I
am giving up on this day already
I
am sure I gave up on this day yesterday
I
am sure she is not the one
I
am comfortable with her
I
am afraid I'm already going through the motions with her
I
am feeling like a fraud and a bad actor
I
am reaching out yet again for something with someone whose time has long passed
I
am capable of happiness
I
am able to make myself feel energized
I
am making a deposit
I
am wastefully spending money again
I
am starting school next week
I
am coughing, wheezing and not sick
I
am God am
I
am the light at the end of the tunnel
I
am the front of an oncoming train
I
am sure God knows but he ain't telling
I
am in need of a haircut
I
am lighting a candle
I
am cursing the darkness
I
am duality at it's finest
I
am manic
I
am not manic
I
am wishing I could write expressively
I
am always learning
I
am always forgetting
I
am keeping a record
I
am searching for something to say that interests you
I
am watching the digital clock flicker
I
am sure it has not been 12:00 a.m. for the last two hours or so
I
am going to set things straight
I
am going to lose track of my goals
I
am going to start over
I
am going to keep trying
I
am going to stop eating out
I
am looking and searching and reaching and grasping
I
am hiding
I
am going to call my mom
I
am going to be grateful she is still alive
I
am yelling at Otis
I
am using the word "conundrum" because it makes me laugh and I don't
know why
I
am wondering about procreation
I
am afraid of commitment
I
am hurting, in a consistent way, like an ingrown toenail
I
am able to schmooze
I
am good at it though hardly ever in the mood
I
am hating people who bullshit for a living
I
am able to do it for money
I am
a whore
I
am going to take the easy way out
I
am blaming my father for that, even though I am aware that that is a cop-out
I
am able to change my bad habits
I
am wondering if I'm still online, or did I get logged off due to inactivity
I am
able to m ake you love me, and I am doing it, now
I
am kind of cute, sort of
I am
a knockout
I
am 12 rounds
I
wish I could fly like superman
I
mentioned superman twice already, yet never read his comics
I
am a huge fan of spiderman and wolverine
I
am looking for my lost love
I
am sure it wasn't love
I am
in need of some good, meaningless sex right about now
I
am looking for a girl who doesn't feel guilty about sex
I
am sure there are way too fucking few of them out there
I
am lighting up
I
am cooling down
I
am that rip in your couch
I
am re-stringing my guitar
I
am wondering how my CD player broke all by itself
I
am wishing I would practice everyday
I…
no… we? Ok, no. Just me. Really? You
too? I thought it was just me?
I
have a spare set of keys
I
have them in a place which will be totally useless to me if I ever need them
I
am content
I
am the test pattern at 4:30 a.m. after the national anthem
I
am old enough to remember that
I
am young enough to give you the finger
I
am looking through my little black book
I
am sure I would envy me if I was someone else and didn't know the real truth
I
am lucky to have my health, such as it is.
I
am not leaving a message on your machine
I
am going to call even though I have nothing to say, but I said I would call, so
here goes
I
am not ready today
I
am going to continue this at a later date
I
am standing on the corner with a violin under my chin
I
am sitting at the back of the bus
I
am laying the foundation
I
am choosing the location
I
am leaving early
I
am cheating
I
am grainy and blurry
I
am changing the channel
I
am visualizing
I
am the ball
I
am agreeing to something I do not want to do for her sake
I
am a gentleman
I
am on the wrong side of the tracks
I
am moving on up to a de-lux apartment in the sky
I
am not going to smile just because you want me too
I
am a little style and a little more substance
I
am not done yet…
